Surgery

I saw the surgeon today and had a consult before the procedure. They then took me back and removed the old stitches. Then proceeded to go in and remove all the tissue surrounding where the biopsy was. They took out a decent amount of tissue cause I now have 10 stitches in my leg. They have it all wrapped up and needs to stay that way for 72 hours. Along with me taking it easy for 72 hours. We all know that won't be easy for me but I think I better listen to the Dr this time. The feeling is coming back in my leg and it is definately painful even in the back of my calf. I am sure that is due to them cutting into some muscle. Sorry babe I think it will be awhile before I can get back to the gym.

Gettin Closer

Started painting the outside yesterday. There will will white trim around the windows and in the peak where you can see the white stripes those will be white trim boards.

the fireplace where the plywood is will all be rock here soon

I love the timber framed look inside. We should be able to start painting the inside this coming weekend.

Never think it could happen to you

You know I never in my wildest dreams thought it could happen to me. Why would I think that I ask my gosh I am the tanning queen. Whats my number one favorite thing to do? Those who know me probably already answered that before reading on. Yes laying out is my favorite thing do. Guess it is time to find a new favorite. I got the dreaded call today from my Dr. A week ago exactly today I went to the Dr to have a small mole removed off my leg that was itchy. Yep you guessed it the dreaded phone call was saying I have Melanoma. I cried and cried some more but now it is time to hold my chin up and trust in the Lord that everything will be okay. I go back next week and see the surgeon. I will keep everyone posted. Kathy

Happy Fathers Day

My brother John and Grace

Sean and the boys last year antelope hunting out West



Buzz (Grandpa Town), Grace and Sean


Oh and can't forget my precious Bailey

Papa (Grandpa Texas) and Logan

Dave (Grandpa farm or as Grace calls him Papa) and Grace

Happy Fathers day to all of our friends and family. I hope you all enjoy your day but remember just cause today is one dedicated day remember everyday is special!! Take that time to hug your kids a little tighter and a little longer. They are only little once!!

Surprise Date

Wow where does a girl begin. So I get a text from Sean that said I got you a little something but forgot it at the shop in town can you get it by 5. I text him back and said no problem. Excited that I knew he was thinking about me and got me a little something. I head over to the shop right before 5 to find a card in his desk drawer. I open up this amazing card and read it and then I start to read what he wrote. By the way... I skipped golfing to be with you. Call me when you get this... I am waiting for you! I have a silly little date planned for us hope you are excited!! Okay by this time I am in shock Sean skipped golf on one of the most gorgeous days 89 degrees to be with me. This is almost unheard of!! I get to the house and there he waits in his truck with a song playing from way back when we met. Okay talk about going back in time I haven't heard that song in many years. We drove to Oakwood and hung out on the beach and in the water. Then we went to the picnic area and talked for almost 2 hours. I then said I was hungry for the Country Clubs Prime. To bad it was Wednesday and men's night to top it off. Maybe we will get to go this weekend cause still sounds good. Anyways he then mentions that he packed a picnic lunch. I looked at him like are you really serious and he told me to go look. Sure enough he packed a cooler and brought a blanket. In the cooler was Jimmy Johns which let me add I LOVE. Tootsie Rolls which again I LOVE, Hershey Kisses that said I LOVE YOU and life water. He also had another card in there for me. So after chatting some more we were both craving steak so we drove to Poinsett and ate a great dinner then went for a long walk on the beach. We got home at 10:30 and it was the most amazing evening that I have had in a long time.

Sean I want to thank you for staying by my side and loving me when it hasn't always been the easiest. You are an amazing guy and I love you so much!!!

Bowling

Okay if this picture doesn't make you laugh I am not sure what will.

She got a kick out of that blower to dry your hands

I took the kids bowling on Sunday. That was a blast and can't wait to do it again.

Pics from a 3 year old

This picture made me laugh!!! She was holding my camera and was taking pics of the house and she took one of herself and I didn't know it until I downloaded these on the computer.

She was so proud of herself taking pictures of the house it was pretty cute but I will admit I was a bit nervous she was going to drop my camera.

Bonus room above the garage got sprayed today with the open cell insulation

This is what it looks like be for they scrape it

Our bedroom

That door goes off on to a little deck, you stand out there and look down now and its a long ways down.

The fireplace in the great room. It will all be rock around the base and up the wall with a flat screen above!!!

My Kitchen

That will be the bar and that plywood there will all be rock just like the fireplace

The house is really coming along fast I think considering we started just around 6 weeks ago. The rough plumbing is done along with the electrical. Today they will come in and spray in the open cell insulation. The next step is sheetrocking, taping and mudding!! Now the fun begins for Sean and I (okay probably not much fun for him ha ha) with picking out flooring, paint colors, furniture and even appliances. I still need to pick out all my faucets I thought the plumber was going to strangle me lastnight when he asked if I had them picked out. Whoops I forgot all about the faucets. Hard to imagine having to furnish an entire house down to bedding, art for the walls you name it we need it. But really how exciting if you think about it. You usally get one chance at that and that is when you move out to college and you get stuff from your parents basement or I guess when you get married and you and your new spouse combine all your unmatched things LOL!! So what a great new beginning for Sean and I and of course our family. So here I need your help and give me ideas for my kids rooms. Logan and Hunter are sharing a room and I am looking at getting them loft beds with desks underneath so if you know of a cool one definately let me know. Austins rooms is all bought minus the bed and dresser. He will have a cowboy theme and I am going to get him a log bed. Miss Grace I want something fun that she can have for a few years and absolutely no character stuff. Sorry just find it cheesy! For our room I am looking for something maybe a bit more girly. I did the camo room for him in the old house I think it is my turn :) So rack your brains and throw me some ideas PLEASE!!


Take a second and listen to the song that I have playing...it's so me! I sometimes have a hard time explaining myself but when I hear a song, I'm like oh yea that sounds like me haha...Sometimes it's just the way life goes, you think you have it all figured out when suddenly every plan and every assumption goes out the window. I think it's important to keep track of the fact that it isn't ours to have under control in the first place. My place is not to control or plan out my life, but to trust in God...and live for him...And as I live, I am going to be clumsy, make mistakes. It's ok, it's a good thing because it means I'm really living and getting in the middle of stuff, getting a little dirty(if you know what I mean.) What good is it sitting all proper every day and never dreaming or living out your dreams? God made us and he is the one who CREATED us the way we are...very unique..and I believe that it's our job to live that out and let HIM grow the characteristics He's created in us...

Very busy weekend in the Lesnar household and we were short two kids. Austin and Grace were at Grandpa and Grandma farms for the weekend. The older two boys had a baseball tournament on Saturday and Sunday. Sean worked Friday night at a big job and it went very well!! So while he worked I went to the Berreths for supper to catch up with some great friends. I haven't been the best at keeping in touch the last couple of months. I was handed a lot on my plate at the beginning of the year. I got to a point to be honest where I really hit a wall. I have isolated myself from a lot of friends and family who really do truly care about me. I am so sorry for that and I am working on getting the old chipper Kathy back. Sean and I talked Thursday night briefly about whats going on and then really got into a deep conversation on Saturday night. Something that has needed to be done for months. I felt much better and know that I can stand on my two feet and work through all of this. So thanks to my great friends who let me vent these last few days. To my kids I am sorry I haven't been the best Mom and I know I can do better and I will. I really enjoyed my time with you this past weekend laughing and hugging you. Something that I know you have been missing from me. I need to focus on what's most important and that's my family and friends. Like Nikki told me on Friday "I haven't gone anywhere" but I knew I had and I am so glad she didn't. This fire really through me for a whirlwind and I thought I was handling it so well and other people would comment to me that I was. I think the reality of it all just hit me and I realized that I had put a wall up and wasn't truly dealing with the stress and grief of it all. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of that day and that phone call. Or I will hear the sirens of a firetruck and I have flashbacks from that afternoon standing on the highway in negative degree weather wondering why us. But guess what the reality of it is yes it was tragic and yes I lost a lot of things that meant a lot to me but I need to be happy that my family is safe my dog is safe and the rest are really just things. We had amazing friends there on the scene almost immediately to hug us and comfort us. We had friends there to help us go through what was left. I am thankful for them that is a true friend. Those true friends know who they are and have stuck by me these last few months when I haven't been that great of a friend to them. THANK YOU!!

Air Photos

A friend emailed these us this morning. Awesome photos from the air of our house and barns. The man made pond looks great I can't wait tell my Mom starts landscaping around there it is going to be my personal little resort with sand, fire pit etc...